I don’t like broken stuff. I want it either fixed or thrown out. But God loves broken stuff. King David knew this when he wrote, “The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.” And the way we get “broken” usually hurts.
Applying this concept to leadership in Leading with a Limp, Dan Allender says,
“For most leaders, humility comes only by wounds suffered from foolish falls… We achieve brokenness by falling off of our throne. To be broken is not a choice; it is a gift.”
I suppose it is only when I am conscious of my brokenness as a leader that I am genuinely equipped to lead as an ambassador of Jesus. I have some stories of epic failure in my life and ministry. Not until later could I see them as gifts. But now I am so grateful that the Father let me fall as I learned to walk as a leader.
You know, Paul led as the chief repenter in his day—as a big sinner who had an even bigger Savior. He refused to be the hero, because that role was reserved for Jesus. So that’s what I want today: a consciousness of my cracks that, although I would not have chosen them, are present as gifts. Wounds through which humility and wisdom are created and through which grace can now flow.